A Is For Ashley

She's Shaking, She's Shaking

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 17:40:38 GMT

so, what a fun filled day today has been. Well, not really. I have to write two articles, one on James Braddock and one on Gone with the Wind. Not my idea of fun. So I'm sitting here blasting Chiodos to avoid having to write these articles. I'm also attempting to avoid watching Gone with the Wind which I have to do to write the article on it. Microsoft word is confusing me. Only $860 until I can buy my MacBook. Ugh I really wish I had that right about now, it would make my life complete. I could be sitting in my nice warm bed right now instead of in this fucking freezing cold basement. I'm attempting to plan Katie's birthday party, well help plan, but my mom is bitchin. I have to find all the pieces of the outfit that I'm trying to put together that resembles Serena's outfit when she goes out with Dan in the pilot episode of Gossip Girl. I need to get my ass over to Borders and get some new books, I have $100 to spend there and I need something new and good to read (other than the Gossip Girl prequel). I'm really seriously obsessing over Chiodos lately, I have no idea why, I keep like flip flopping between bands, it's weird. Yesterday it was all about The Rocket Summer and before that it was Justin Timberlake. Chiodos is what it's all about right now though. I really should start this article, then go shower, my grandparents are coming over and I am so not ready hahaha. Well, I guess I'm gonna go write this fucking article.

Peace, Love, & Santi

Some Days All I Do Is Watch The Sky

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 21:34:34 GMT

long time no update so I figured I might as well fill you all in on what's been going on in my life. I spent the last few days with two of my favorite people one the planet, Katie and Baron. Went shopping at the Willowbrook Mall with Katie, bought some sweet shit and sat around her room and made fun of one too many people and just said some really mean things. We are total bitches, but thats ok. Then went with Katie to get her hair done on Wednesday and let me tell you her hair looks fucking AWESOME! I would tell you what color it is but she wants to surprise the world. I spent all day yesterday with the love of my life, Baron. He is really the most amazing boy on the planet and I am so happy I met him. I love him so much, its rediculous. He was supposed to come over again today, but he's sick :[. my poor boy. Anyway, Katie's sleeping over tonight its gonna be a blast. Then tomorrow at 12:30 I'm going to dye my hair platinum...or well...close to it. It's gonna look fly as hell and I'm getting my bangs cut so they look better. Then I'm going to see Bee Movie with my loves Alaina, Emily, and Jenna and then we are gonna have a super awesome party and i think have a sleep over. And then Sunday I'm just gonna crash and then it's Monday :[. Me and Baron's one month is next wednesday, I think that's fabulous. Thanksgiving is right around the corner and I really can't wait. I guess that's about it. Post new pictures of my hair tomorrow once it's done.

Peace, Love, & Santi!

I Drove For Miles and Miles and Wound Up At Your Door....

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 22:53:18 GMT

What an interesting week it has been. I've been spending a shit load of time with Sam lately. We totally were alll over the place last week too hahha.

Thursday night we hung out with Ryan, Dave, and Patrick. That was an adventure. We wanted to go see Superbad so me and Sam checked MovieFone and we found out it was playing at some theater in Millburn except that that theater was really in Union but we didnt know that. So then we were gonna go see it in South Orange but we would have had to jump out of it early so Ryan could make is curfew. So we ended up at O'Conor Park where we chilled. Then I wanted a latte (its like 10:30 at night mind you) so we decided to go to Panera which we thought closed at 11 but apparently closed at 10 so we decided that we then wanted Coldstone, which was also closed. So we drive over to Burger King which was also closed. So we went through the drive thru and parked in the parking lot to eat. Then Ryan drove us to Sam's. Once me and Sam are safely in Sam's room, Sam realizes she left her phone in Ryan's car. Isn't that just lovely.

So then Friday we go to Dorney Park and scream our lungs out on a shit load of rollercoasters and then wait all day just to get our fucking Hershey's Ice Cream. It was Tastey. Then we get to Bunny's in South Orange an see Gil....talk about awkwarddddd.

Saturday was deffffffff the most interesting day of all. So me and Sam hung out during the day with Ryan and Dave and then went to Krista's for a party. Krista told me to invite Ryan and some friends, so I did. He brought Christian (my brother), Oscar, John, and Weylin. Let me tell you, I got sooooo fucked up it wasn't even funny. I dont even fucking remember what happened that night. All I know is everyone got wrecked, the guys got kicked out, John left early with his cooler of snapple, and I puked for god knows how long.

ohhhh what an interesting couple of days it has been.

Christian had a party last night that me and Sam could have been at if my mom wasnt bitchin about me going to Morristown. Gheeeeeey. Buttt Ryan called me up totally trashed an Christian took over the phone and said some funny shit like: "we are sperm siblings. we went through the same penis, and theres like a 50/50 chance that we were in the same testical sack. you know what would make me really happy? if we were in the same testical sack" and then he proceeded to tell me my boyfriend was walking around completely naked. Oh those boys are interesting to talk to at 12:45 in the morning.

anyway, thats about it. I hope this week is just as crazy. ;]

Peace, love, & Santi

In The Most Unexpected Places

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 17:09:45 GMT

well...what an eventful 14 hours I've had. no one is gonna believe this shit, it's fucking crazy man.

ok, so I'm on the phone with Ryan last night and I'm like "So, did you do anything awesome with Christian today, since it's his birthday and all?" and he's all like "oh shit, I have to call him, I completely forgot." and so he hangs up and doesn't call me back for like a half hour and i'm just sitting here chatting with Jeffrey and what not and Ryan calls me and is like "I need to tell you something very important. It has to do with how we met." and i'm all like "ok, then tell me." and he's like "i can't Christian has to tell you." and I'm like "why can't you just tell me?" and he's like "i can't Christian has to tell you." and I'm like "fine, then have him call me" and hes like "ok." so like 15 minutes later Christian calls me and is like "this is really important, and I really dont want you to freak out." and I'm like, "i wont freak out, what is it?" and he goes on to tell me that my dad is his dad and he's my fucking half brother. and I really didn't believe him but then he started feeding me information that only I knew about my dad that I never told Ryan and then everything started to make complete sense. So then me and Christian we're talking and i'm all like "i'm not gonna believe you 100% until I talk to my dad." and he's like "that's fine, but i'm not lying to you" so then I'm talking to Ryan and stuff and at the same time I'm conversing with Jeff on AIM and no one is believing Christian, except Ryan. So I get off the phone with Ryan and it's like midnight now and I call Hannah and tell her everything and then we were on the phone until like 1 freaking out and stuff because this is all just so like wtf?! and so Hannah hangs up at like one and I'm still freaking out while I'm on AIM with Jeff and I finally go to bed at like quarter to two, but I didnt actually fall asleep until quarter after two. So I got up at eleven this morning and go downstairs and ask my mom about it and she's all like "i knew about him, i just didnt know his name or anything about him. and I only knew because your father was paying child support for him while we were together. and I didnt tell you because, honestly, I forgot." and I'm all like, "thats ok whatever, I dont expect you to have told me, I just wish Daddy told me." and shes like "he should have" so then I call up my dad and i'm like "we need to have a serious talk." and hes like "about what?" and i'm like "I got a phone call last night from Ryan's friend Christian telling me he's your son." and he's like "what?" and i'm like "you know natalie?" and he's like "yeah" and i'm like "well..yeah." and he's like "i have to call you back" and that was at like eleven thirty and he hasn't called me back yet. Oh man this has been some crazzzzzy shit. man, crazy.

i'm out. more info later, possibly.

peace&love

- Ashley

EDIT://

all has been confirmed. Christian is infact my brother.

We're Living In A Wasteland.

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 11:38:28 GMT

Yum, it's 6:38 in the morning and I'm posting for no reason.

isn't this just exciting. not really, I just need something to pass the time since I'm done getting ready.

doot doot doot.

I dont feel like going to school but I will cause it will make my six day wait for California go by faster.

This Is A Party Without The People.

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 16:09:49 GMT

GAHHHHHH!
the last three weeks have been insane.
with Katie's sweet on the 19th:

Alexa's sweet last night:

and play rehersal:

I am completely shot. I havent felt so dead and tired before in my life. school isnt helping much either. but its all good 8 days and I'm heading to Californiaaaaa. <3
so souppppeddd. I have also realized that I have the best friends in the world, ever.

i love my friends.

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 04:31:38 GMT

hannah got me an ugly doll.

=D

yesyesyesyesyesyesyes!!!!

Well

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 20:46:44 GMT

its two days til Christmas and me and jeff have been broken up for almost two weeks now.

were cool though.

its only 3:43 and I have people coming over at 7:00 for the friends gift exchange. I want it to be 7 like right this minute because I have nothing to do for three hours.

blegh blegh blegh.

this is so not fun.

anyone wanna get me Frank Iero for christmas?

you know you wanna get me him for christmas.

Have You Ever Been Alone In A Crowded Room?

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 00:51:37 GMT

so, yeah. i have fallen completely in love with Jack's Mannequin and Andrew McMahon.
yummy yummy yummy yum.

thats all i have to say.

Andrew McMahon is love.

I'm Finally Numb, So Please Don't Get Me Rescued

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 21:55:49 GMT

So, I've been crying for a long time now. And I'm tired of it, I don't like crying and I don't like feeling like this. It's the worst feeling in the world. I hate it a whole lot and I don't want to feel like this ever again. That however, is inevitable. I was foolish to think it was gonna work. I just want everything to go back to the way before, and It'll take some time but I know it'll happen. I guess I just have to turn around and accept everything, live with it, and move on.

im not sure if i'm ready for that.

=/

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 04:22:20 GMT

Life is getting to the point where I'm dreading weekends because I spend them at home doing nothing while everyone else is out living their life.

And I dread every single day of the week because I just plain hate school.

I want out, I need out, I need to get the hell away from this place.

I need a vacation, not just from school but from life in general.

I wish i could pack a bag grab han and jeff jump on a plane and go somewhere far far away from here.

Things seem to be getting too overwhelming and I dont really like it and I dont want to deal with it anymore. I want to lay in bed, shut off my brain, and just sleep for a long long long long time.

ugh.

525,600 Minutes

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 23:36:38 GMT

hihihi!
I saw RENT yesterday with the drama classes at my school and let me tell you, it was the most amazing show i have ever seen!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh! i wanna go see it again right this minute thats how amazing it was, no lie.
and let me tell you, the guy who plays the character Mark (Christopher J. Hanke) is so effing hotttttttt!
hes like yummy to the millionth power.
=D

ok, thats about it.

GO SEE RENT!

that is the gorgeous Christopher J. Hanke. SO YUMMY!

I Wanna Fall In Love, Tonight.

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 23:28:01 GMT

what a day today has been.
its me and Jeff's one month and we got into a fight.
well it was more of a dissagreement.
there was crying involved.
=/

its all good now though.
bored, tired, and hungry.
i want chocolate chip cookies, anyone wanna make me some?
haha.

i've been getting into Good Charlotte a lot lately. They really are some amazing musicians. werd.

ok, im done.

here we go!

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 23:03:45 GMT

finally got rid of those annoying ads that were pissing me off.
so i'm super bored and I have nothing to do and me and hannah are in the process of writing a my chem story that will probably be the best MCR story ever created once we figure out what we want to happen.

bored bored bored.

ajkljgk!

I made a site for Jac Vanek if anyone wants to check it out.
Vanek! [Is No Longer At The Disco]
im pretty proud of it.

I guess thats it.
until i get super bored again.

oh, how i miss Maine.

Under Pressure We're Cracking!

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 21:26:32 GMT

Hello Hello There!
I've been home sick all day and I've been completely bored.
as much as i hate school I hate not going even more.
because even though I dont learn a single thing and i just sit in various class rooms for six hours a day, I have my friends around me and I actually enjoy myself. Sitting here home all by myself makes me depressed and lonely because I have no one to talk to and nothing to do so I find myself watching the entire first season of The OC all day. Its not the best way to pass the time but it keeps me somewhat occupied.
Tomorrow is me and Jeff's one month, super happy about that. =]

ugh, RENT trip for school is sometime this week and I have no clue when it is and its pissing me off cause were gone all day long and we cant be late or we'll miss the bus which is totally not cool cause I really wanna go. Ugh, school is so dysfunctional. I hate it.

21 days until christmas!
i love the holidays.

Fa la la la la, la la la la

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 22:44:42 GMT

=]
im at my dads.
we got our tree.
its super tall.
and fat.
and i like it.

Han's buying me a Jac Vanek print, superrr excited for that one.
well, i have nothing to do, so ill be sitting here chatting with han.

oh man, my dad's letting me borrow the 35mm so chea, me and han will be having the most awesome photoshoot everrrrrrrrrrr!

heck yes.

I'll Never Let Them Hurt You, I Promise

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 19:14:30 GMT

So we went and got our Christmas tree today.
its fat.
and less than a foot taller than me.
=]

i love christmas, i really really do.
and it finally feels like the christmas season now because Thanksgiving's over and everyone's all ready for the festivities.

I myself cant wait for Christmas.
but I'm dreading Christmas shopping.
I dont feel like spending hours buying stuff.
but then again i want to get the perfect gift for everyone.

thank god i already have hannah and jeff's christmas gifts picked out.

movies later with Jeff and Han so far, possibly Kathrine? hmm, i'll call tricia too.

k, im out.

haha, me han and jeffrey are sooo cool.

And If You Could Talk To Me Tell Me If It's So

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 02:07:56 GMT

so, like I predicted tonight was amazing.
more food.
yummmmm.

i miss jeff like crazy at the moment.
=/

I want to see him like right this second but I cant.
blowssss.

blegh I have nothing to do so I think I'll just sit here and listen to MCR while talking to hannah bananahead.

wow, i have no life.

Just A Sad Song, With Nothing To Say

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 20:49:37 GMT

So I really kinda wish I could be like Jac Vanek and Audrey Kitching.
the two of them are my fucking idols.
they are gorgeous and amazing.
and somewhat trashy.

i'll skip on the trashy part.
but I dont know, I'd kill to be a scene queen like them.

it would be fucking amazing.

whatevs, I'll figure something out one of these days.

anyway, leaving in like a half hour for the 'day after thanksgiving thanksgiving day feast' at eileen's with han.
its most def gonna be the shit.
werd?

i'm out.

wowowowow, old picture.
yes we are fucking idiots, but i love her to death.

Think I'd Love To Die Alone

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 15:23:42 GMT

Well, not really.
I'm super bored and I have nothing to do but sit here or go downstairs and play super mario brothers which I kinda dont feel like doing at the moment.
so I got a sweet new layout, its awesome.

Yesterday was Thanksgiving and it was crazy as usual and my family got to meet my boyfriend which I thought was going to be a disaster but it wasnt, surprisingly. He likes my fam and hopefully they like him and I think they do.

Tonight's the annual 'Day After Thanksgiving Thanksgiving Day Feast' over at Eileen's and I'm bringing Han along for the ride.

It's just weird, me and Han havent hung out just the two of us in a long long time and I dont really like that. We are BFF and Cheerleading has taken over her life and then once that's over we have like two months before I've got softball to take over my life, and if it's not softball it'll be the school play.

I keep wishing for it to be summer because I just want summer cause with summer comes my sweet sixteen which i am dying for. I get to wear the Helena dress and i'm mad souped for it. Its gonna be awesome. But I kinda want it to be Christmas now. Haha, I'm not really sure what I want, all I really want right now is some more turkey but I have to wait until 6:00 for that.

You'll Always Be My Thunder

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 01:07:52 GMT

so i'm happy.

cause, well i have an amazing boyfriend.

(he was arguing with my friend)
me: what is she saying to you
me: because
me: i seriously
jeff: wow
me: will
jeff: wow
me: get on her ass
jeff: noo
jeff: please don
jeff: dont
jeff: i love you way to much and i dont want any fights or anything

yes ladies and gentlemen, my boyfriend is the cutest thing to walk this earth. and its ok, you can all be jealous that you dont have him and that hes mine.

i love him, a whole lot.

Hold Your Breath Because You Only Make Things Worse

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 17:31:57 GMT

No more Brian.
that makes quite a few people happy.

anyway, im bored.
i want taco bell.
and i want it to be later so my Jeffy can come over and we can watch The Texas Chainsaw Massecare.

=]

Do Your Best To Hide Your Face

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 22:37:50 GMT

bored bored bored.
and i cannot wait until friday because, well i finally get to see my wonderful Brian Poo<3 and it's gonna be a long week cause im looking forward to this.

urgggg!!! major frustration.
whatevss i'll deal...ish.

ok, i guess im out cause i really dont have that much else to say.

<33 Ashley Marie Caroline.

Savior Of The Broken...

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 23:39:26 GMT

so, i'm super bored and procrastinating studying for my numerous tests tomorrow.
bleggggh. sooo i'm super borredd and its freezing, and it was thundering like crazy last night and made it seem like someone was bombing new jersey trying to blow it straight off the east coast.
not cool.

im eating a yummy chocolate chip cookie, and im tired. and i really dont want to go to school tomorrow, but its supposed to be cold so i get to wear my hot orange parka...which looks like this:

yes yes children, i have a parka almost exactly like Pete Wentz's. =]

but anywhooo im bored, and i should probably study and then head to bed.

PEACE OUT HOMESSSS!

<3 Ashley Marie Caroline.

Welcome To The Black Parade

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 23:25:21 GMT

well well well, I know this is my first entry, but I am a memeber of the MCRmy andd well, I have a mission, and my mission is to spread this video to as many people as I possibly can. So here it is...

Welcome To The Black Parade
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My Chemical Romance's Myspace Page